I know it's Wednesday, but I started this article on a Monday and I'm just getting around to finishing it. Actually, I started it last Monday... but who is counting?
In my mind, I have a vision of how the typical Monday should go. I wake up a little on the earlier side and take my time getting ready for work – shower, get dressed, and head out. I grab my large Dunkin’ iced coffee and nestle into my desk chair to begin the work week. It shouldn’t be too hard. Every weekend is a chance to reset; every Monday a chance to start anew.
My alarm went off and I only hit the snooze-button once, which is a ‘win’ for me. I tidied up my room a bit – the photographer is coming to take pictures for the listing later today and I wanted everything to be neat. I weighed myself: 223. This is a miserable statistic for me. My goal is to weigh 190 for my marathons in late October and my recent trend has been towards weight-gain, not weight-loss. My training and diet have been lax – even with the nice weather, I haven’t gotten myself outside to run very much. I need to do better – this number was a testament to that, and I vowed to change. Selling the house, moving on, good spring weather… this seems like a good week to change.
Of slight annoyance on this fine morning was the fact that we had clients coming into the office, so I had to forego our normal casual dress code for business attire. After losing 65 pounds, my suits no longer fit – especially the pants. The jackets are loose, but I don’t wear my jacket all day and usually drape it on the back of my chair anyway. My solution is to try to match a dark blue suit jacket with dark blue slacks, button up the shirt to the neck and throw on the tie… if I remember how to tie it.
I grabbed a packet of instant oatmeal and a banana and slipped out of the house. Pulling the car into the Dunkin drive-thru, I then ordered my large iced coffee. “I’m sorry, but we don’t have any large cups today – is a medium okay?” No, it’s not okay. This disrupts my morning routine. What should I do? Do I order two mediums? I don’t know… so I just took the one medium and drove off aggravated.
On the way to work I was met with a road block that diverted me to a longer route to the office. I mean really… could there be any more signs that I should have just stayed in bed this Monday morning?
Reaching the office a little later than I wanted, I ate my breakfast – the banana and the oatmeal – and got to work. Of course, by now the iced coffee, being only a medium, was a distant memory. I was annoyed at being annoyed and decided to head to the nearest Dunkin’ Donuts and remedy the situation. There I bought my large iced coffee – to go on top of the medium, which I hardly felt ever existed by now. And to soothe my bad Monday attitude, I added a ham, egg and cheese Wake-Up wrap, which I promptly made disappear in 3 bites.
By 8am, I was 670 calories into what was supposed to be the beginning of my new diet. I should have just not ordered the medium coffee this morning and got two Boston Kreme donuts instead – from a pure calorie standpoint, I might have been better off.
I don’t know what’s going on with me lately. I have had a lot of disruptions in my everyday life and my normal routine has had very little “normal” about it. It's a struggle to rediscover the reliable routine I once had. I don't go to bed early anymore. I haven't gone to the gym at 5AM - when it opens - in months. That is something I used to do often when I was more focused.
I'm gonna snap out of it. I know that I am. My official marathon training schedule begins in a few weeks. I have another half marathon scheduled in Lake Placid in mid-June. It's time to regain focus.
In thinking it over, I believe that maybe this is the whole purpose for my starting this blog. Some people find adhering to training to be a part of life - to be easy. For a long time, I did too. But I'm not a machine. I'm a normal person... I'm just...
Ordinary.
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